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Monday, 15 November 2010

Where's she been?

It's the second time in a little over a month that I've been violently ill, so apologies for my absense.  For almost a week now I've been waking up feeling worse than I felt the day before.  It can't be a good thing.  Every time I start back at the gym, something forces me to have to stop. And then illness ensues.  My assessment deadlines are looming (one is actually overdue now).  My nights are filled with nightmares.  Dark shadows appear in my bedroom.  Every single night.  The red tray for urgent submissions on my desk is overflowing.  I have three 3 hour exams in the space of 3 days in the next 14 days.  Three's a charm, right?  I have no energy.  For anything.

Take a holiday everyone says.  I had intended to.  My planned and now booked and paid holidays are a mere 5 weeks away, yet I am experiencing pangs of fear and guilt.  If I have a bad feeling about this trip, maybe I shouldn't be taking it?  Maybe I should follow my gut instinct and not go?  But I can't stand spending another weekend in those 4 walls, let alone almost 4 weeks.  I don't know what to do?  And it's not like I can count on Melbourne to provide me with a blissful 4 weeks of holiday weather.  I'm sick of sweaters, even if I do love them.

I'm longing for days of no assignments, of no journal articles to read and regurgitate for a paper for a paper about fair value, no alarm clocks on the weekends to wake me to listen to lectures about accounting standards.  I miss reading non sense magazines, I miss trips to the beach and drives along the coast line with the car window open and my hair blowing in the wind (even hair sticking to lip gross on such perfect days wouldn't bother me). 

And why can't Melbourne make up it's mind about the weather?  Why did wearing this dress and shoes feel so out of place on a mid November day?  Why did it feel like I should have been wearing opaques and boots and a scarf and coat? AND THERMALS UNDERNEATH!  When just 48 hours earlier it was 29C/84F.  Yesterday it was less than half that?

Why do I spend hours hating the contents of my wardrobe, wrestling with coat hangers and mountains of clothes, not wanting to leave the house as I have nothing to wear.  Correction: nothing I want to wear...





fleur wood dress
asos wedges
olga berg clutch




26 comments:

  1. You have amazing legs! Ha!! That probably sounds weird but you do!!! Love the dress.

    This weather is so sucky. I hate that it's so in limbo.

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  2. Oh no - get well soon.

    Gorgeous outfit!

    SSG xxx

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  3. :( I'm sorry you haven't been feeling well. It sounds like you definitely need a break, maybe you'll feel better about your holiday trip when it gets closer? Its hard for me to tell you not to trust your gut feelings about your trip, but it does sound like you need a break...


    On a lighter note, I totally LOVE that dress! The lace is fabulous :D

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  4. I'm sorry to hear that you've been finding things tough. You will have an amazing holiday and come back refreshed and rejuvenated!

    You look stunning in that outfit.

    x

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  5. Great dress. From the FW sale? Hope you're on the mend. Don't cancel the holiday - trust me, it will do you wonders.

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  6. Oh dear, I hope you feel better soon!

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  7. but that outfit is PERFECT!! I hope you start to feel better soon. def. take a vacay :)

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  8. So sorry to hear you don't feel well, but rest assured you look SMASHING.

    Merci!
    Shannan

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  9. Not feeling well totally blows...ugh. But you really do look amazing! The dress is gorge and I am totally swooning over your wedges! love it.

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  10. WOAH, that is such a great outfit!

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  11. Cute shoes
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  12. I'm so sorry you've been sick! I hope you're feeling better now. Sounds like you're really busy, I think the holiday will be perfect! I'd love to take a vacation soon too. Your dress is absolutely stunning. Love the wedges too.

    xo
    Valerie

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  13. Hey hun... you look gorgeous.. I hope you're feeling better. Being ill is never fun. :/ Happy Tuesday!

    xx Love & Aloha

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  15. that dress is beyond.amazing. and the wedges go so perfectly! love your blog <3

    xoxo

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  16. Love this post, gorgeous dress!

    Maryjane xoxo

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  17. Oh dear, you poor thing! I hope you're on the mend quick smart...

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  19. How am I missing your posts?? This stupid google reader thing!!

    Are you doing even a little better? I understand the ridiculous weather...we had such ups and downs all summer it was a major bummer. Take your vacation and rest and relax!! BALI!! plz save room in your suitcase for me.

    You should be getting an email about your jewelry tomorrow since I today was the target, but I know there's a ton going on over there. I hope it cheers you up and that you start to feel way better very soon. Have you ever tried acupuncture??

    Email me!! Let's talk!!

    xoxoxo,
    Carrie
    ps-you look amazing in that outfit. plz pass it over upon completion!

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